exhausted... but good...

i worked on some altered art items last night and this morning. i'm so excited when things start falling into place and youc an see the finished project! i can't wait till i receive mine back from other people working on it... i am just thrilled!

now, from art world to real world! lol

ok, so i'm not superwoman! i admit it! THERE! i said it! *letting out big deep breath* can we just progress from there?! i hope so!

for those who don't already know... i am extremely A.D.D.... always have been... i was one of the lucky ones who did NOT grow out of it. i didn't even realize it until i was 27 yrs old and my son was being tested for it at the age of 7. they ask alot of backgroud questions about the child's parents, grandparents, etc. to see if there is any familial link to this sort of thing, which there can be. so, after talking to the dr, and having my mom fill out the paperwork about me as a child, turns to me and says: "well, you are classic A.D.D... you've just managed to make it into adulthood without any help from anyone else. you've learned your own coping skills and you deal with what you can and you don't deal with what you can't! lol the good news is, there is a reason for all the misc. bullshit that you've dealt with all your life, and it's not because you are a lazy, crazy, stupid or bad person." well, i burst into tears right then and there because that is exactly what i had thought about myself my whole life! i was lazy, crazy, stupid, bad or all of the above! things have been much better for me as the years have gone by... well, since 1999 anyway. that's when i finally ventured into getting some help with some medication. and it really did help! i was so glad. but it is no magic bullet. there are no special powers, no wiggling of the nose or snapping the fingers..,. doesn't work that way. for the most part, the meds really help me to function in a more normal way. BUT... IF life throws a lot of stressers on me, IF there is alot of emotional stuff happening, IF schdules are too tight and i get overwhelmed... everything pretty much goes in the toilet! lol well, not EVERYTHING... i get about 1/4 to 1/2 of things done before i am off to another thing... so nothing ever really gets finished or complete. which is frustrating, totally frustrating. i go to my dr appt tomorrow and i am going to ask her if there is anything different i might be abe to take to help with it. the one i've been on since '99 just isn't cutting it anymore. we'll see what they do. there are so many new and different medications for A.D.D. now. i figure there ought to be at least one that i could take. lol in the meantime, i start projects, and i stop them i go back to them, and then i go fix dinner (well, i start dinner) and then i go rewash the clothes that i put in the washer day before yesterday cause i forgot they were there, then i go on to figure out exactly what HAS to be done RIGHT NOW , cause if i dont' do it FIRST, it aint' gonna get done! LOL we all survive, but it's definately interesting, to say the least. OH! and to top it all off i've totally thrown my back out! yay! what a great mix to the daily puzzle, huh? you betcha! i'm off to take some motrin, put dishes away and whatever else i can do for now. cause once i sit down, my back is going to lock up and i won't be moving anywhere anytime soon or at least not very fast!